Today I went to Corvallis for computer repair. I had some other errands to run in Corvallis, and the since it was going to be done in two or three hours I decided to spend some time at the waterfront. As I walked down front Street I decided to go into flat tail for a beer and appetizers like Christina and I would often do in the great restaurants in Corvallis. I sat by myself in the corner looking out to the running path/ sidewalk. As I waited for my order, a man came on and was sat a table over from me, and while he waited for his party we chatted for a bit. His told me his name was Rick Ross I think, maybe around 70 years old? A younger couple joined him, and since I'm not an eavesdropper im not sure if they were related, but they send close. As I sat there I was flooded by my extreme loss of my wife, missing her more today than yesterday, a sense of desperate loneliness. Tears rolled down my cheeks, and I just leaned into that emotion. As it passed I realized that I am single now, and it blows!
~ today I am hopeful ~
